I was paging through an old journal recently, and I found the following entry:
August 14, 2004: Well, it’s beginning to look like I’ll have to publish The Grievers on my own. We came home today after house-sitting for my uncle, and there were eleven or twelve rejections in the mail. These were the results of my 3rd round of queries, and they always say the same thing — it isn’t that the agents don’t like my writing, it’s that the market is so tight… Oh well. One heartening thing, though: We were watching the bonus disk that goes with the Office DVD, and someone commented that the show’s characters were unsympathetic — which is exactly what one agent said was the problem with my book. And The Office is one of my favorite shows!
For me, it was interesting to stumble upon this entry for a couple of reasons. The biggest is that I’d actually forgotten how close I was to self-publishing The Grievers. If not for the fact that Chuck Palahniuk convinced me not to, I probably would have published the novel on my own, and it probably would have gone nowhere.
I say this, of course, with the benefit of hindsight. At the time, I thought The Grievers was as good as it was going to be. But since I decided not to publish it on my own, I was unknowingly giving myself some much needed distance from the project and, in turn, giving it a bit of breathing room. As a result, I was able to be much more objective in my approach to the project when I returned to it a couple of years later.
All of this is to say that getting the novel rejected when I did was probably good for the novel and good for me as a writer. It forced me to start a new project (The Singular Exploits of Wonder Mom and Party Girl), and the experience of getting that novel published in two very different editions taught me a lot not only about editing but about the book industry in general.
When I eventually returned to The Grievers, I understood things like pacing, plot, and character development a bit more solidly, and that allowed me to make some major improvement to the novel. Perhaps more significantly, I had a better understanding of some of the realities of the “market,” which helped me to understand why agents were rejecting the book.
To wit, The Grievers probably wasn’t going to be a “blockbuster” in the Harry Potter or Twilight sense of the word, so even if agents did “like” my writing, they weren’t really going to get much money out of any deal they could get for me. Like Wonder Mom, it’s probably more suited to a small press that appreciates my quirky and admittedly dark sense of humor than to a big press that wants the next Da Vinci Code.
Needless to say, finding the right small press was no cakewalk. I had to do a lot of research — by which I mean reading a lot of books from a lot of different presses — before finding one that matched what I was doing. But this work eventually payed off in a lot of ways. It made me realize that writing isn’t a solitary venture, and that writers need to figure out where they fit into the bigger picture of the publishing landscape if they want to find the right publisher.
Additionally, all of that reading helped me look at my own work from a new perspective. I wouldn’t say that I specifically wrote The Grievers to suit the needs of a particular publisher, but it is fair to say that reading works by certain authors I admired helped me to understand how I might do a better job of making it the kind of book I wanted it to be.
Yet while rejection was ultimately good for The Grievers, there was no way for me to know that at the time. It still stung, and I still feel a bit of a sting any time something I’ve written gets rejected or a bad review. But that brings me to the second point that struck me when I read my journal entry from 2004: I wasn’t willing to give up, and I wasn’t going to write a more marketable brand of fiction just because agents were having trouble figuring out how to sell my work.
Based on that journal entry, I’m guessing that the most specific feedback I got from any agents at the time was that my characters were unsympathetic. A rational human being probably would have responded to this criticism by making sure the characters in his or her next novel were highly sympathetic. But the decision to write fiction isn’t exactly the mark of a rational human being, and my next novel was about a drug dealing soccer mom who gets high around her children and frequently puts them in danger. Characters don’t get much less sympathetic than that.
Which isn’t to say that Wonder Mom isn’t engaging (at least by my standards), and it also isn’t to say that my protagonist isn’t an interesting if highly flawed character. It’s just to say that she does a lot of things that the average person would disapprove of. But my comment about The Office tells me that that’s the kind of story I like.
David Brent is as flawed as an office manager can be (apologies to Michael Scott!), and that’s why I’m drawn to him. And I’m drawn to flawed characters in every medium. Max Fischer in Rushmore. Grady Trip in Michael Chabon’s Wonder Boys. Lear in King Lear. Bill Clinton throughout his tenure in the White House. As Elvis Costello once said, “If the failure is great, then it tends to fascinate.”
The lesson, if there is one in all of this, is that I didn’t need to abandon my fascination. I just needed to find a publisher — and an audience — who shared it. And that probably wouldn’t have happened if I’d jumped into the fray and published The Grievers on my own in 2004.
14 thoughts on “A Setback Circa 2004”
Thanks for this–I needed to hear it right now. My novel, “Mr. Neutron,” is pulling rejections (or no response at all) from agents, and having spent so much time on the book, it’s quite disheartening. I’m a long way from giving up or turning to self publishing, and it’s nice to know things work out once in a while. Best of luck with Wonder Mom.
I’m glad this post was helpful — and glad that you’re far from giving up! The best advice I ever got was to forget about the rejections and forge ahead with my next project.
So glad to read this Marc. I’m at the point of shelving no. 1 (for now) and writing no. 2. I had a really good (though negative) response from a publishing house saying they loved my writing, but this particular project wasn’t right for their readers. They gave reasons, all of which are valid, but I don’t feel that re-writing this book for them would work.They also asked me to please feel free to submit any future projects. Much closer than the form rejections I’ve received to date! So I’ve started number 2 with their spec’s in mind.
Good to see that your decisions and hard work have turned out so well for you! Very encouraging post. x
Good luck with project number two!
Boy, can I ever relate to this story! Thanks for posting it.
Glad you enjoyed it!
Thanks for this post. Great reminders for me. And this: >> the decision to write fiction isn’t exactly the mark of a rational human being… ROFL! Oh, yeah.
As for unsympathetic, sympathetic characters: Larry McMurtry’s characters come to mind. Many drug-dealing, poor, twisted, flawed, but somehow very human.
Glad to make you laugh! I’ll definitely have to read some McMurtry.
A great post as always Marc. I think this is something more aspiring writers need to hear and realize for themselves. Just because you can throw a book out with self publishing doesn’t mean that you should sometimes. There is an apprenticeship of sorts that any writer needs to go through to develop their skills and voice. And unfortunately that means time and a lot of rejections. It is great to see the perspective that journal entry gave you and he reassurances it gives the rest of us chasing that book deal. Thank you.
Thanks! I definitely think the “realizing it for ourselves” component is key. A lot of writers handed me similar wisdom, but this was the kind of lesson I really needed to experience for myself in order for it to sink in.
I loved this post. Thank you for sharing your rejection and triumphs with us all!
Glad to be of service!
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